“Here’s your disconnected limb,” my surgeon, Dr. Vogel, said distantly. Thinking aloud while rolling through the fresh CT images, he continued, “How’d they get contrast down there?” “I did it.” Turning to me with raised eyebrows and eyes kind beyond his years, he then chuckled slightly and responded, “I should’ve known.” It helps to know […]

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Lost in America – Calhan, Colorado

Wednesday. 10:30am. My LAR1 is three short weeks away. As usual, I’m hiding my unease by refusing to address the issue. All’s well so far today, the internal voice says. Yes, go with that. Personal hokum and manufactured platitudes are ideal when attempting to ignore one’s pending morbidity and mortality. And, to top it off, I’m […]

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Aequanimitas Revisited

Mental calmness, composure, and evenness of temper, especially in a difficult situation. OED. With snow continuing to fall through the shivering Colorado sky, the brilliance of winter’s stark white cleanliness betrays a dark and somber start to this day. I have learned that a friend is dead. Sitting in front of my laptop and staring […]

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